Bitterness on Repeat

        Let's be honest everyone is bitter about something, some aspect of their life no matter how small has left a bad taste in their mouth. Once you realize your bitter there is no holding back, the flood gates open anything and everything is a potential trigger that is going to set off your anger and frustration. The bitterness comes from a place that you were trying to forget: where all of the bad memories, hurt feelings, jealousy and resentment get buried in hopes that if you don't talk about them or try to ignore them they will go away. The problem is the feelings don't stay buried in fact they simmer just under the surface and with every failed relationship, bad day at work, drama with friends the bitterness starts to bubble up until eventually it boils over. When this happens no one is safe, you have to take your anger, resentment and build up frustrations out on other people so that your head doesn't go sailing off from all the pressure that has built up from constantly burying how you really feel. The bitterness inside has eaten away at you and as horrible as it sounds it feels good to let it out and make people understand what you have quietly been going through. Even after all this there is always going to be another event or person in your life that fills that bitterness right back up, no matter how hard you try to fight it the feelings come back. An once the bad reaches maximum capacity the cycle begins again, but we tell yourselves that next time it will be different, we have learned from our mistakes. But let me tell you from personal experience, we don't learn from our mistakes we just put them on repeat and expect a different result.